I want to believe today was better than yesterday and yesterday was better than day before yesterday. life is shit hole.
I am a very organized person and I always thought this is one of my super power.
but this shit is really challenging me. can't organize it. more thinking more shit.
always things come at once. feel like taking a shower with shits. swimming in shit hole. life is full of shit I made and shit shit shit.



I will just give up.
I will just take a deep bath in this shit.
I will smell like shit later.
whatever.




don't know what to do. and don't want to do anything.
probably I am in 1q84 world.
literally don't want to do anything.

by the way. I am just talking to myself not to you.
don't take it wrong whatever this shit means.